I feel almost ashamed of myself. I got onto Newgrounds a while ago and haven't really done anything with it yet. Newgrounds is the only place I feel comfortable being online, because I get to be surrounded by so many artists, animators, musicians and several other creative types, all kinds of people I love and have so much admiration for, and in a free open space that encourages being yourself and working to create awesome shit. I needed that, because for the longest time of my life I've felt isolated, like I had no place to express myself, whether it be through my art or my words. But I haven't been in the right state of mind to really go all out here. I've been feeling demotivated, confused, self-hating and anxious. It's prevented me from creating art I'm really proud of and trying to enjoy NG to the fullest. I don't want to just come and go on NG, I want to be apart of this community.
But now, I think I'm starting to feel better with myself, and eventually I can start really putting my effort into this. I'm not gonna keep posting old art on my computer and leaving NG for extended periods of time. I'm gonna be apart of this community of creators and have fun doing it for however long it lasts. I wanna interact, I wanna improve as an artist, but most importantly, I just wanna be myself and have fun.